Carson,
Sweetie, I know you
don't like to read but I sincerely hope you read this all the way through.
Anyways, I've had so much fun with you in the last 7 months. We're always
together, and we constantly talk all the time. You're always there for me, and
I know I can count on you, most of the time. You've always seemed like the
perfect guy for me, cheerleader, straight A student, and someone who likes to
have fun. You're my best friend. That's the problem though; you're too much of
my best friend.
Don't get me wrong
here darling; I love the fact that you're one of my best friends. However,
that's all I see you as. I've known you for the last 5 or so years, and we've
become close, really close. I love how close we are, but we're close in a best
friend way, not a relationship way. I need someone who I have more than
physical chemistry with, and someone who I can see as more than just a best
friend. I need a rock, and not a
flower. I need someone who will be there when I'm upset, and not someone
who will cry with me because I'm upset.
I absolutely want
you in my life still. I want you in my life as my best friend, as the one who
will walk out on the competition floor with me hand and hand waiting for the
music to start so we can hit a perfect routine, as the one who will be there on
New Year’s Eve every year for our annual New Year’s kiss, as the one I can call
at 3 am because my new boyfriend does something idiotic, and as the one who I
know won't walk out of my life like everyone else. I need you in my life; I
just need you as my best friend and not my boyfriend. You're the perfect best
friend, the perfect mentor, and the perfect older brother figure I know will be
there. I know in your heart that you feel the same way about us, and I know you
will forgive me for doing this to you because I know you more than you know
yourself. We are the exception of love never ending in friendship.
Love,
Taylor
(Your BEST FRIEND and nothing more)